I should be sleeping, but I got home about an hour ago from my date with A. Can I just say I really like that boy? I've enjoyed the time I've spent with him, letting him shake up my rules. (No one younger, no military....)
It was a good time today, though we both knew it was the last time for a long time (maybe ever?) but that made the conversation that much better, that much sweeter. Like I said, I really should be sleeping, but I needed to get a few things out.
First, I'm glad for A. He's got that chispa - initiative, determination, spirit - that I like. He's that rare blend of toughness and sensitivity, the kind of man who won't insult your independence by making you wait for him to open EVERY DOOR IN THE WORLD, but is still a perfect gentlman; the kind of guy you could definitely take home to Mom. There's a seriousness about him that I like, although he still made me laugh to no end tonight. I'm glad I met him, glad we hung out, glad for everything about him. He's the first guy whom I didn't constantly compare to J. and that is SUCH a good thing. Not that I'm totally over J., but that A. showed me there really are other men with whom I can connect on every level that matters.
And while he's not going off to war (thank GOD!), he is going off to FL for more training and then he'll be touring with the Honor Guard, and that's enough to have me humming this song: "Travelin' Soldier" (Or Airman, whatever)
Can I just say: I am so freakin' tan! Working at a summer camp is the best thing I could be doing to get this sweet golden brown here in the States, although it's probably not the best thing for my skin. I will say that I have recently starting spraying myself with SPF 15 daily before leaving, and I reapply SPF 30 to my face periodically. I'm working on it.... That said, I am still the whitest person at work.
Moving on, I have another date with A. tonight - the last before he's off to FL for his deployment. Like I said, it's been fun, and I have enjoyed hanging out. He's a really cool dude. We'll see if we keep in touch after tonight....
I had a date with A. last night. We went to the movies to watch Wanted, but it was sold out, so we settled on the latest Indiana Jones movie, which we both enjoyed, even though he hadn't seen any of the previous ones. After the movie, we hit up IHOP where our waiter totally flirted with A. much to my amusement. All in all, a good time. We have a lot in common, and it's just easy with him - no searching for topics of conversation, no awkwardness, no pressure, just a lot of laughing and talking. He's leaving for FL in July, and I'm on my way to Philly in August, so this will be short lived, but it's been fun.
Other than that, it's the usual.
This is the first weekend in about a month that I don't have any plans and it feels GOOD. I've been cleaning up at a nice leisurely pace in my sweats and Kanye T.
I've been remembering today why I love Fiel a la Vega to no end: there's this insane poetry to their lyrics that I just can't get over.
Here are a few of my favorites:
1. "Encontrarte es una historia que hoy deberían publicar"
It's my favorite of their songs, though there was some stiff competition. It's about the quiet intimacy of love, about love easing our insecurities, about the day-to-day beauty of discovering another person.... Love it.
2. "Cositas Así"
The title of this blog came from this song, as did the quote at the top of the page. All the little things disappear before little things like these.... "Y decidí que sólo yo mismo puedo ser" (And I decided I can only be myself) and "Lejos de mí las estrellas quedarán pues sólo así las puedo ver brillar" (The stars will remain far from me because that's the only way I'll see them shine) are the lines that I most love. It's a song about idealism tempered by reality - the kind of thing I get.
3. "Solamente"
This could've easily been number one. From those opening chords, I get goosebumps. Few songs are this beautiful and deep. It's about all those secret things we want: those connections, that comfort, that renewal.... My favorite lines: "Y la felicidad a veces me está utópica, Señor, como un sueño de Marx, como una romántica canción, pero si acercas tus dedos de emancipación, liberas mi sed del dolor del sol." -- I'll try a translation, but there's so much you lose in English: "And sometimes happiness seems utopian to me, Lord, like a Marxist dream, or a romantic song, but if you come close with your emancipating fingers, you'll free my thirst from the pain caused by the sun." Yeah, so much better in Spanish....
4. "Boricua en la luna"
Because it's the culture that makes us Boricuas. People have asked how I can feel so Puerto Rican when I have lived off the island most of my life, and it's like this: I was raised Puerto Rican. It's the culture more than anything: calling everyone Mr. or Mrs., putting family above all else, a stirring of the soul when you hear La borinqueña.... "Y así le grito al villano, yo sería borincano aunque naciera en la luna." - I'd be Boricua even if I were born on the moon.
5. "Canción en la arena"
This is one of my ultimate summer songs. First of all, it's hilarious, second it's so chiiiiiill. My favorite part is the part where he talks about the guy in the Che Guevara shirt, and says, "poor Che doesn't know he ended up generating a whole lot of capital". Oh, the irony.... Haha!
6. "Elipsis de una fuga"
I don't love the video, but I love, love, love, this song. There's this subtle sexiness to it, although it's about protest and politics as well as about this relationship he's got going on. Like I said, these guys are poets.
7. "Septiembre Río Piedras"
Another highly political song.... I like the part about euthanizing democracy. The unfortunate thing is that it's what we live in so many parts of the world. I also like how he points out that we all come into the political process with our own pet issues. Finally, there're the references to Buddha, Christ, Bob Dylan, John Lennon, Silvio Rodríguez, and Pablo Neruda. The words that they "bled" that we forget when it comes to fighting for what we believe....
8. "Mil canciones"
It's a song about knowing yourself, what you stand for; it's about growth. "Suman mil mis contradicciones; todas canto así" - My contradictions add up to a thousand; I sing them all this way. I feel you....
9. "Salimos de aquí"
A song that sums up the complicated duality of being Puerto Rican - the mix of the local culture and all that's imported, this balance of Spanish Caribbean and US protectorate, the autonomous and the dependent.... We are a mix, a hybrid, a culture between two worlds; and yet we are singular in our way of life, our language, our culture. At once hybrid and pure. This song gets all of that. It really does make your heart swell with pride.
10. "Voces de sol"
This is one that's so full of hope. You can just imagine these men and women - glowing because they're dressed in sunlight - walking towards justice and something beautiful.
